So I wrote a book
I posted about it a lot at first but then slowly my enthusiasm began to fade.
I heard a few remarks on how I was posting so much for attention or “using the car wreck.”
I acted like it didn’t bother me, but the lack of posts I’ve made about it sense then, shows that it must’ve more than I realized.
I like to say I don’t really care what people think about me, but apparently I do so much that I let it determine what I post. I listened so much to the opinions of others that l began to feel bad over one of the only things I’ve ever felt genuinely proud of.
This book was not a small thing for me… sure it might not get a lot of recognition, but that’s not what I’m talking about.
It’s big. Actually no, it’s huge to me. It’s huge to take something that broke me and share it with the world in the most vulnerable form. It’s huge for me to show my weakness and my humanity to anyone willing to read it.
So yes. I am “using the car wreck.”
If I don’t take control over one of the worst things to ever happen to me, it will take control of me.
Some days it seems like it does..
I don’t remember what it was like to be the way I once was emotionally or physically.
I think about both my car wreck, and losing my grandpa every single day.
Literally. Every. Single. Day.
Not by choice,, I don’t like to dwell on negatives. But because I have to live with the side effects as a constant reminder.
Some days I’m reallllyyy not doing so hot 😅…
But that book right there ^ reminds me I at least did something.
At a time when I felt like doing nothing, I did something.
Maybe small.
Maybe few people have read it.
But to me it’s big.
So when I want to post about it. I’m going to post about it.
I WROTE A BOOK.
Like what in the world.
I actually did that 😂
All the glory to God always, my hands couldn’t write if not for him, my mind couldn’t fathom if not for him. It was him who created me with ideas and passion, it was him who set the determination in my heart to take something bad and try to make it good. My lazy self would’ve never gotten around to writing a book if it wasn’t to make some sort of an impact in his name.
I hope you don’t get me wrong when I say I’m proud of myself, the glory to God always, absolutely. Still though, I could’ve just sat back and pouted about all of the things that have messed up my life, but instead I gave him all my ideas, and all of my effort, and I went for it.
Take a moment today and appreciate the things about yourself that make you feel accomplished.
Recognizing your hard work & effort doesn’t have to be a prideful thing.
In the same way you should love your self without being selfish, I believe you can be proud of yourself without being prideful.
It’s all about finding the balance.
So….I’m not done.
The book was honestly just the start of the big plans I believe God has for my life and things I will achieve.
And to you the car accident might seem very irrelevant, but it is and will always be a part of my story. (Literally because it’s a book😉) ...lol.…,, ..
So I will tell it when I want.
DO THE THINGS GOD HAS CALLED YOU TO DO!!! AND STOP LOOKING FOR THE APPROVAL OF OTHERS TO ALIGN WITH HIS PURPOSE!
You can order my book using this link ⬇️
tor💛