Updated: Sep 9, 2019
This week has not been the easiest for me. I’m just going to be open and honest with you guys because you deserve my reality, NOT a made up and better version of my life.
I do not like drama, but this week I have found myself in the middle of a few situations, the biggest one being gossip.
I found out some things that one of my friends had been saying about me when I wasn’t around and it broke my heart.
I know very well that people associate me with God, because I like to represent my faith. Everybody knows I’m a Christian because I let everyone know. What better thing to be defined as than a child of God?? However... this week I didn’t represent God the best.....
Instead of confronting my friend about what she’d said, I went and talked to someone else. I said “___ keeps saying ___ about me and it’s really hurting my feelings.”
I was so broken down about the things she said that I was crying in my room that night, and the crazy thing is she had no idea she even hurt my feelings.
How was she supposed to change the way she treated me, if she didn’t know the way she was treating me was wrong?
I eventually came to realize that the way I had been telling people about her, wasn’t any better than her talking about me.
I’ve been going through a bit of an emotional battle these past few days because I realized I could be hurting her. I don’t want to hurt her, I love my friends. Not only that, but my gossiping about her is putting other people in a bad position too, because then they have to pick sides, (and usually they’ll side with whoever is in front of them.)
I didn’t want my other friends to not like my friend because of the things she said about me. I didn’t want my friends to talk bad about my other friend, but I opened the door for them to.
I want to move past this, but in order to do that I need to confront my friend. I’m scared to, because I don’t want to hurt her feelings, but talking about her behind her back would hurt her feelings much more. (And I know that because that’s the situation I’m in right now.)
Pray for me this week everybody, I’d really appreciate it. Pray that I’d go through it thinking before I speak, and only using my words to build up others, not break them down. Pray for courage to face my friend and tell her about how I feel, because she deserves to know.
Your body is a vessel for God, and so that means your words are a reflection of his. Represent God with grace, compassion, and love. Go Through this week thinking how your words will affect people too, because they WILL affect people.